i'm so tired.

i am finally back in the land of the living and able to eat real food in amounts that will actually keep me alive and not puke, yay. SO i ate hot pot not once but twice this weekend, and had a meal of some of the best thai food i've ever eaten :) at the second hot pot of the weekend, my dinner was a HUGE plate of alligator meat which i am happy to report was actually so good that i will choose it of my own free will next time ;) i met my friends jayson and milliya sunday night and we watched sherlock holmes (such a good filmmmmmmmm, really made me miss london!) and rode motorcycles...oh my life, i love riding motorcycles so much.

i would like to beg you...as well as i can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. and the point is to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
-rainer maria rilke
letters to a young poet